As we wind down 2011 and look ahead to 2012 I like to set goals for the year... don't like using resolutions.
I would like to lose a nice little chunk of weight ... lets just say it's over 20 lbs. but under 50 lbs. I will start eating better which basically means portion control and not as many sweets. I will also try to motivate myself to do a walk video three days a week and some weight training with either weights or a resistance band two days a week.
I want to also get the clutter out of my life... this includes my house, my body and my mind. I want to keep it simple. I would also like to come to terms with my life and how it is. I would also like to work on my faith and personal relationship with God.
I have to make a decision about whether or not to sue on behalf of Nicole for medical malpractice. I was told last year by an attorney that the statute of limitations had run out but one of Nicole's doctor's told me that it is the age of majority. I have tried to contact several attorneys via their contact section on their websites and have had no response. I don't know if this is God's way of telling me to let it rest or what. I also have to think about what this would do to her SSI and Medicaid which is the only insurance she has.
I think a very hard think for me this year will be Nicole turning 18. I know she won't be moving out or anything like that but she will a "legal adult" even though she's still in high school. My job as her parent is basically over as I have raised her up. She is a really good girl and I am proud of the young lady she has become. I guess I feel like I have a little of the empty nest feeling even though she is still at home if this makes any sense. I really am not her parent in the sense of the word that she's a minor. I will be getting power of attorney or having her do an advance directive or something so I can continue to speak on her behalf and make the decisions for her if she can't pertaining to her health issues. This all brings up issues of who and what I am without being a mom. I don't feel like I have any talents or gifts.
I really hope that 2012 is a good year. I know it can always be worse but I wouldn't have considered 2011 one of the better years, however, in a lot of ways it was better than 2010.
I wish everybody a happy, healthy and prosperous New Year.